More on the enemy

Psalm 118:13,14 "You pushed me violently that I might fall, but the Lord helped me, He is my strength, my song, and has become my salvation."

It is so easy to blame God. We think that blame must fall on someone, somewhere. There certainly can be no good reason for all of this pain and suffering.
But there is.

My pain and suffering has been so intense of late, with no way to stabilize or find Peace. No way to pray. No way out.

The only way out, was through. I, instead, was turning away from, every chance I got. I just wanted to run. Really fast. Away. And the pain stood its ground. And it seemed that everything in my life had stopped.

I was angry too. Angry at what? Everything. It had no focus, included anything in range.

Angry at the standstill, no, the standoff I was in, with myself, with God.
Angry at having to go through one more day like this.

And then something happened that began the shift forward again.
S L O W L Y

I was obedient ONE MORE TIME.

And it was THE time. And the anger broke, and hope rushed in.